When you have a break-up you have the heart-breaker and the heart broken. Now in my case I was the heart breaker. It was probably one of the hardest things i have had to do. Not only because a part of me still loves him, but the fact that he is one of my best friends and I never would have imagine me out of all people would be someone to hurt him.
Is this really what I want though, to not be with him? I guess my real catch is if I still love him like I did before or do I just love him as a best friend. I had 2 different dreams last night and one was about him. I woke up this morning and thought of him. Are these signs or just something I will get over. I was planning on going to the Sadie Hawkins dance with this guy, yet I don't think that is gonna happen. I already bought the tickets, and my mom says I have to go. I will probably ask one of my closest friends Michael to go. I really don't know what to do. He is completely on my mind right now, and I am lost in all confusion. Feelings are confusing and stupid in my opinion. Yes sometimes they can be interesting and fun, but not this time. This time they make things hard. Confusion and Love are probably the 2 worst feelings, and they are even worse when the become intertwined. I can't believe it has come to this. I mean 4 months ago, this guy was the guy I was crushing on. IDK what to do!!!
Amanda:)
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